Yay, title says it all. Fuck life. I have to go back to school tomorrow, whoopee. And I have an appointment with the Ed team. They're supposed to get me set back up with my antidepressants. Since I quit a few months ago. Sigh. Then there was the homework I was supposed to do for them, about moving forward and goals and what I want to work on when I see them. Um hello if I knew what I wanted to work on I would have already fixed it. I'm sure they think I'm a huge joke. Fat girl. Failure at Ed. I'm honestly convinced they don't think I'm serious at all anymore because I'm not purging much, thanks to them, and I'm not skinny enough, fuck. No one listens or takes me serious because I'm so fucking fat. I want to be so thin I look breakable, I want to reflect how I feel on the inside on the outside. And that is like shit. I just want to break.
I'm sorry I didn't post yesterday. Yesterday was the year anniversary of when I almost took the od. Why the fuck didn't I?! Urg. Biggest mistake of my life, should have done it. I hate this.
This was a shit food day. Every day is a shit food day because I have no self control. I am fucking nothing.
I'm so done,
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